A little of this a little of that..........

Don't you feel like sometimes when you stop and just take a quick look around it's almost as if someone has hit the fast forward button on you? It amazes me how many times I let my responsibilities outside of home take away from my home and family. I continue to struggle with resentment and anger about the fact that I have any "real" responsibilites outside of home/family. But that is something I have just got to figure out and just really truly come to grips with. My job is funny. Some days I really like it and some days I am ready to just quit and go live in a tent in the forrest. Sadly I let is occupy too much of my thoughts and energy. My wake up call came yesterday afternoon when I went and enrolled my baby boy in Kindergarten! My last little baby headed of to Kindie. Where did time go? And who in the world said that 5 is a good age for Kindie? He's my BABY!!! He is waaaaaayyyyy too little to be around all those other big kids! How will he know where to go, how we he do all day without us, what if he is sad or hurt or just needs a hug? Those are just some of the thoughts that racked my mind as I filled out the humongous stack of forms the school handed me, lol!
Then I look at my 15 year old daughter, who has been with her boyfriend (as of February 24th) for 4 months! ACKKKKKKKK!!!!!! She talks about driving next year, and going to college and moving out when she goes to school, and I think WAAAAAIIIIIITTTTTT!!!!!!!! Wasn't she just 3 and letting me do literally everything for her? Her very very good friend moved to Washington last year and they still keep in touch through emails, phone and texting. Her friend is miserable and really truly cannot stand living in Washington. She finally asked her Mom if she could come live back in Phoenix with her Grandma. Justine was so happy she might move back. But in the same breath she said she thought it was so sad because she said she couldn't imagine not living with me till she's older, and who would she talk to and who would help her with her problems? She said "I mean you and we are not just like mom and daughter but we are like friends and I totally look to you for answers to stuff." I felt like wow, and then I felt like waaaahhh!!! Ahhhhh the joys of motherhood! Lol! Ughhh, so emotional, lol!
Robert and I have decided one of us needs to get fixed. Such a sad, sad thing. To know that I will never carry a little baby again just makes me feel so sad sometimes. But I realize too that if we did ever have another little one I would most likely be carted directly off to the looney bin. Oops, did I actually write that? lol! I would love to have another little one, but I think we would really really be placing ourselves in a tough spot. So now we decide who will it be? My vote is Robert, lol! Well Unfortunately I have to cut this short, because my taxi services are needed. I will hopefully write more tomorrow after work!

Falalala.... huh where'd it go?

Christmas raced by in a flurry! I often wonder how it can come and go so fast. The kids had a great day, and I have to admit we did too. You know what I LOVE, just absolutley LOVE about our kids? They NEVER get up early on Christmas!!!! The earliest they've ever gotten up is 7:30am! Most Christmases they will wake up around 9am! So AWESOME!!! If I had my crap together (which I do NOT), then Robert and I would not end up going to bed at around 3am every Christmas eve, lol. So for the kids to sleep in till 9am, is so very cool! We are not morning people, so it works very well for us, lol!

One thing that totally blew me away, is that the kids got along very well all day. Finally about 8:30pm Miranda and Marcus got back to their fighting, but what a day! Sooooooo nice!

Saturday was Marcus' Birthday - WHOOOOO HOOOOO 12 years old!!!!! He had a blast with Dad at Castles and Coasters! Marcus and Robert had the chance to spend the day with one of the University of Minnisota Gophers football players at Castle and Coasters. Marcus was thrilled! He had such a great day. Afterward we went to Olive Garden for dinner. And at the end of our day Marcus said "You know Mom, I think this was the very best Birthday I've ever had." Sweet!! Getting the much wanted and begged for RipStick probably had a little bit to do with it. This child is the most determined little person I've ever seen. When he got heelies over 2 years ago he was determined to learn to use them. A scraped elbow, forehead, hip, back, and extrememly black eye later he had it down. And how long did this take? Ohhhhh, about 8 hours, lol! The Ripstick was learned much quicker, and now we are on to the dangerous stage - tricks - lol! But being the smart little fellow that he is he realized right away that the helmet he has for skateboarding (that never get's used) was vital in learning the ride the Ripstick. So thankfully he does wear it, at least for now. Altho today he unstrapped his helmet, and decided to step back onto the ripstick. He fell and his helmet somehow smashed him right in the nose. It is amazing how much blood that little nose can hold! Lesson learned - strap it on!
My amazing young man, he just blows me away!

Hmmmm, how do ya do this?

Okay, so many time times I have read other peoples blogs and thought, hmmmm should I make one of those? So now I have decided I will! I'm not quite sure how it all works, and about how good I will be at keeping up with it, but I'll try it out! What I am really truly hoping is that I will not be so utterly depressing to others. That I can come here and share my thoughts and happenings without being too down. KwIm? Maybe, just maybe I could find some friends to share things with, and who I can also listen to. I come with a lot of baggage, so hopefully I can keep it upbeat, lol!